Gonna Fly Now

Tuesday August 3 - the countown begins

In 12 days I will face the (second only to giving birth) most physically gruelling challenge thus far in my life. And, I believe I am more scared of the TRI than I was of natural childbirth.

Yesterday and last night I hit a bump in the road - a bit of negative self-talk, including, but not limited to, "what the hell was I thinking committing to this?"; "I'm not ready, I haven't trained enough"; "everyone else (who exactly I'm referring to, not sure) has trained more and trained smarter"; "what if I fail?"; "yes, I can swim forever in the pool, but that might mean nothing when I'm in the ocean." And on and on and on.

These "bumps" suck. They suck your energy and take you away from the happy place. I'm trying to figure out what purpose the negative self-talk is serving - trying to make a good out of a bad. I feel like I'm in a movie dream - being followed by the little angel on one side and devil on the other, speaking in word bubbles above my head. Okay, so looking at it that way makes it comical. That's how I will see it, hysterically funny that while I am sweating my arse off, running 2 miles, I am doubting my strength and ability. And it IS ironic that the devil showed his ugly little grin the same night I swam not 20, not 21, but Twenty Two laps!!

Ok, I'm over it. Ahhhh this is so therapeutic.

The VORTEX should arrive today - OMGoodness I am so excited! At the same time, I'm a little nervous about putting that badboy on - it is quite...form fitting.. O well, it is what it is.

I bought some fancy new goggles yesterday - they did make a big difference in my range of vision (is that even a thing? Range of vision?) - only drawback, they are not cute. Again, O well.

New sports bra - check. This new purchase IS cute. Even Iz said so. Green and Pink (and reversible!)- takes me right back to my preppy roots. Yup, this sports bra would look just great paired with Chinos and the Penny Loafers I still have from high school. No kidding. Izzy loves them and can't wait to wear them. In fact, they are in her closet and will probably fit her next week, her feet are growing so fast!

Debate over whether to wear a bandana or a hat for the run ?? Either way, my headgear will be pink in honor of all of the cancer survivors out there!

OK, true confessions, last night while I was running, the Theme from Rocky (Gonna Fly Now) came on and OMGoodness I got chills. BIGTIME. Does anyone else get chills from inspirational music? I felt like such a CHEESE BALL! But, it made me smile and run faster, so it's all good.

For your listening pleasure:
http://www.discoverynet.com/~ajsnead/allsongs_1/rocky.html

And just for kicks - for your viewing pleasure:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-pmSvWHgaao&feature=related


Have a great day! I plan to.